Planning The Unpredictable

LIVING with Multiple Sclerosis

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Anger

June 9th, 2008 · 1 Comment

I have lots of anger. I am not really an angry person but none the less, there is a lot of it. I don’t feel like hanging out with people. I don’t want to talk to people. I just want to be angry. Just let me be angry…

I am angry at my regular doctor for ignoring my problems all these years. I am angry at myself for letting her ignore my problems. I am angry that I know have to manage this disease. I am angry that it picked me. I am angry at the way people react. I am angry that I have to be careful about who I tell. I am angry at the judgments people make. I am angry at the needles I will need to use daily. I am angry that there is something in my head. I am angry that I won’t know when the next relapse will be. I am angry that this disease is so unpredictable. I am angry that I can’t modify my life plan because this stupid disease doesn’t know how to plan anything. I am angry that I need a pill case to keep my daily pills organized. I am angry that I need like 8 pills a day. I am angry at the idea of a pill. I HATE PILLS.  I am angry that the power keeps going out at work.

I am angry that parents aren’t taking the new vitamin D research more seriously and supplementing their children. I can’t say I am angry that adults aren’t but none the less, they don’t believe me when I say it’s a huge problem in the US. While they don’t know the full deal, there is a link to vitamin D and Multiple Sclerosis.

So yeah, that sums it up. Angry.

(take your vitamin D)

Tags: Newly Diagnosed · Nutrition · Research

1 response so far ↓

  • 1 Ammey // Jun 9, 2008 at 10:53 pm

    I hear ya…My kids and I all take Vit D. My anger comes in waves you just have to make room to process it. It is a good thing to express anger once in awhile.

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