Obsessive Planner

May 31st, 2008 · No Comments

Those that know me well know that I have problems with planning. I am an obsessive planner. I plan the planning. Given that opposites attract, Tom of course is completely opposite of me. I have NO idea how he manages to live without planning but none the less, he always does. I respect him greatly for his chaos.

The other night we were talking about how how unpredictable MS is. I mean, I went blind in a matter of hours. I wasn’t given a warning saying “Dear Nina, This is MS and I would just like to report that you will be going blind on Tuesday at 5:31PM” (although I would have sure liked to get a warning…). There is no standard course with MS. There is no timeline for relapses. There is no planning with this disease.

Everyone with MS is different. Not a single person has the same disability as the next. Not a single person has the course of the disease. If you wanted to be a unique person, MS is a good start. I am unique to everyone with MS.

When you have health problems, you tend to realize what is important in life and what is it not. You try and find what this disease can teach me as a person. You try and find something positive in a negative situation. This whole situation amusing Tom greatly given that he can’t understand my over planning and I can’t understand his chaos. Sure, give the girl that plans everything one of the most unpredictable diseases out there. But none the less, my goal is to learn to appreciate chaos.